Sometimes we jump off the wagon because we see some cookies...
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I want to first say that I truly appreciate the support. Reading your comments here, on Pinterest and on myfitnesspal is truly helpful.
Now for the weight issues...
As of the end of the month, I weigh 213.2 pounds. Looking back that means I've gained 1.8 in the last 2 months. It's disappointing. Big picture I know 1.8 pounds really isn't that big of a deal. The disappointing part is really that I haven't LOST any weight in 2 months. It's like a missed opportunity.
I went on vacation in August and have not really been able to fully commit to my "diet" since then. Now, I know this is a journey and I never expected this to be easy. I just need to find a way to feel motivated again...
I just haven't been feeling it and honestly I think the only reason I haven't gained much of the weight back is that I am now completely vegetarian!
That's something somewhat new that I hadn't mentioned, but have been wanting to. So here's how this process started. I stopped eating red meat sometime towards the end of March. I was trying it out as an experiment. My stomach seemed to always be upset, and by upset I don't mean I was throwing up or was actually sick, it was really more of a general feeling. My stomach just never felt well. So I stopped eating red meat and within a few days I noticed a BIG difference. I somehow felt lighter. So, I was convinced, my body is just better off without it. For a couple of month I didn't really eat much meat, I think I had a hamburger at some point, and it made me feel like crap. BUT I was still craving meat. Then sometime this past summer, my husband decided to bbq. He made fajitas and all sorts of delicious smelling things. So I had some that afternoon and later went to bed. Well, I woke up in the middle of the night with this HORRIBLE pain, so bad that I didn't realize it was just abdominal pain, I truly thought I had somehow stabbed myself with something in my sleep. I actually felt around my stomach thinking I was going to feel some kind of gash or blood. The pain lasted about a full day, and ever since then I don't crave meat at all. Who would!?!?! So that was the last time I ate red meat. At this point I was still eating chicken and seafood. Well I eventually realized that every time I ate chicken I would get that upset stomach feeling again and decided to cut chicken out. I was just going to stick with seafood. I started reading more about being vegetarian and the want/need to eat seafood went away as well. So now, I am completely vegetarian. I've actually been contemplating the idea of going vegan. I've started to replace things in my pantry and refrigerator here and there with vegan options. However, I know it's not a commitment I'm ready for just yet.
Now, I'm not saying that going vegetarian will automatically help you lose weight or not gain any weight back. After all, french fries are vegetarian! lol I do, however, know that it has helped me tremendously. It has "forced" me to eat more grains, fruits and vegetables. So far, I feel great. My stomach really hasn't felt upset!
I still have a long way to go. I still need to lose a lot more weight, and yes, I am a bit disappointed that I basically lost the lead I had on my goals. But we have to remember that we must be kind to ourselves. The disappointment is really taken away when I realize that I'm still on track! Looking at this as a big picture is so helpful. Which is why I'm so glad I have my goals listed on my Erin Condren Life Planner! (picture below)
I can still do this!
I can still be where I DREAMED of being by the end of the month!!!
And I will keep trying! :)
